The Sonnets (Modern)
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¶Like as to make our appetite more keen
¶With eager compounds we our palate urge;
¶As, to prevent our maladies unseen,
1760We sicken to shun sickness when we purge;
¶Even so, being full of your ne'er-cloying sweetness,
¶To bitter sauces did I frame my feeding,
¶And sick of welfare found a kind of meetness
¶To be diseased ere that there was true needing.
1765Thus policy in love, t'anticipate
¶The ills that were not, grew to faults assured,
¶And brought to medicine a healthful state
¶Which, rank of goodness, would by ill be cured.
¶_But thence I learn, and find the lesson true,
1770_Drugs poison him that so fell sick of you.
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¶What potions have I drunk of siren tears
¶Distilled from limbecks foul as hell within,
¶Applying fears to hopes, and hopes to fears,
1775Still losing when I saw myself to win!
¶What wretched errors hath my heart committed,
¶Whilst it hath thought itself so blessèd never!
¶How have mine eyes out of their spheres been fitted
¶In the distraction of this madding fever!
1780O benefit of ill: now I find true
¶That better is by evil still made better,
¶And ruined love when it is built anew
¶Grows fairer than at first, more strong, far greater.
¶_So I return rebuked to my content,
1785_And gain by ills thrice more than I have spent.
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¶That you were once unkind befriends me now,
¶And for that sorrow, which I then did feel,
¶Needs must I under my transgression bow,
1790Unless my nerves were brass or hammered steel.
¶For if you were by my unkindness shaken,
¶As I by yours, you've passed a hell of time,
¶And I, a tyrant, have no leisure taken
¶To weigh how once I suffered in your crime.
1795O that our night of woe might have remembered
¶My deepest sense how hard true sorrow hits,
¶And soon to you, as you to me then, tendered
¶The humble salve which wounded bosoms fits!
¶_But that your trespass now becomes a fee;
1800_Mine ransoms yours, and yours must ransom me.
